Monday, August 5, 2013

He'd filled it uP, Part 4












13.
of life and fragmenting, release-- 
new life from dreams of winter
shimmer shake
there was a HerO that cried that 
he was dead, 

that his adventure had failed him,
and ComediaN genius,
cartoon character
and hieroglyph
Oh, glad to be back out here
in the SUn

Snowing, though there were no cloudS
starS Bright
Jack was sitting having a quesadilla and jalapeno
over kitchen sink
the ConstellationS were revolving round

out the window
thinking about the size of the painting
that last judgemenT 
thing, he had on his mind
the nearing final reality, he thought

nearing, he hadn't been up to the 
pRaYeR flags in a while
he watched the health 
of the Tree at the center
he stood up there reading his poem

the SSnaking river below
the cycles would lift him above
he was thinking on Beauty 
he was thinking on deatH
it was his mOther 

he thought about.
He was WobBbling down 
the lane on his bike.
Another painting ahead--
It was GobBlinG him up.


14.
he would say he cared most 
about the abstraction 
the shapes and colors
that line which drew.
The black and white lagoon 

the depth, is where he started
in mystery
which now the surface 
that the two colors make
in the beginning is a hint of the end

meeting, this reality, a religion 
of sorts or poetry of
reality, he said instead of 
this empty idea they all worship
Unless you meant what 

was older, he had an idea 
for that older unnamable
which was reality itself--
all together, Achilles here, a part 
of that whole thing

The TrumpeT blarE, like air raid horn,
now, here, the sun height
Orange square
depth in the PurplE square
all over form of starS

tHat out there, in here--
He’d said or painted the feeling before
so many times, though
the leaves were ongoing
He said "fuck you, if--" 

A JoKe, well, I’m not sure about breaking it all
the leaves are enough and the
cartoon shape
no man shall see-- 
Odysseus


15.
was puzzling it all together 
that fast surface
he leapt out the window
cold stone sober
what he saw-- 

SufFiceD,
a spot of time, here
repeated through a life
through a broken breeze
painting the lives,

through which leaves hopped, skittled 
and over days, hours, a moment
here--the brush of a fore head
warmed in the blond sun,
that obscure glance

just looking for the outlook 
that would be right
this poem that took the place
of a MouNtaiN
each day passed-- 

in adventure of some kind
sacred moments, which slowed
were looked for and recognized
a patch of blue
giving way

up there on the mountain side
he saw the full moon rise
I mean didn’t they felt badly
knowing the moment had passed
they were teaching now

some relation ship
that the nature we had lost--
never to dance 
with the DaffodilS--
dancing


16.
in the WinD.
Something I saw once--
everything dies everywhere 
and is born of these moments--
this profundity of an inner 

and outer reality, which 
blazed on the edge between.
He wasn’t sure what that meant
Crispin liked the reality seemingly between.
What he meant by JuxtapositioN

Those paintings were finished 
and now feeling at some height, 
he resumed, the stacking
more?--he wondered? the two Henry’s asked
how much further?


Say it even more simply, Jack said.
The different view now
The New, New, he was seeing through 
the words now and there 
wasn’t much more to say,

it was the goings over
he was coming home
here was a garden, 
he could manage--
he held the idea 

in his teeth 
it was the flower 
he saw in Zurbaran
there was a moment when
  all metaphors became one

in the sun.
He was thinking of the old certainty
even if not a reality
what we expected from our intellectual
refinement, what we made up












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